Lately I have lost who I am. I feel like I am back in 2007. In the past even years I have come to grips with loss, I have tried to find the light in every situation, and tried to not let this happen. But I just don’t know anymore. I quit doing stuff that makes me happy. I quit talking to friends and they felt like I just dropped them. I wake up wishing I hadn’t. I feel alone. I feel like I don’t have the support I need. Not saying I don’t but it’s hard to put into words how I feel.. I feel like I let down everyone. I hurt everyone, and that I blame myself for things that honestly feel like they are my fault, but everyone says they aren’t. Anytime I go out, even with friends, I am uncomfortable. I don’t remember the last time I felt fully at piece with myself. I sometimes just wonder if anyone would notice if I disappeared. Because I honestly doubt it.
I am storm5569 and this is The Real Me.